Gosh , people told me there was an earthquake just now . I cant feel the vibrations . Sianzxc lahs . Haii , everytime an earthquake starts more natural disasters starts . Dead Dead Dead , so scary . Blood everywhere . People die , Children die . People clash into buildings . People struck everywhere . Its scary . Imagine walking everywhere around the road , and theres bodies everywhere . Even ranging from young to adults . So scary , haii D;
Exams are getting nearer sia . I'm getting sooo freaking scared . I wanna pass my maths & get A maths nxt year . Streaming year , so many dates to rmb . Everything is so freaking difficult . I'm soooo tired . People , teach me maths ! I wanna aced it D; I'm sooo freaking sad T.T
Its ok , Its alright .
Baby , everything's fine .
Cheerup , im not mad .
I will not get mad .
I love you ♥
Im sry for worrying you like this .
Baby , iloveyou !
Imissyou k !
I hope u see this , <3
Sunday, September 27, 2009
2:16 PM
Watch this , this is super funnny k ! (: Intro by YeeYing de leh . Confirm funny de rite , hahahas . Anyone surprised I posting right now ? Im bored thats why & I promised my beloved kor to post abt him <3 Guess is which kor , i gt three leh . Its none other then Jack Kor ♥ . Love him lotslots !
He's my darling gan kor kor hor . If u all ever snatch him from me , I will slash u to one trillion pieces ! D; This will be ur punishment for snatching him from me . Theres a million possiblities that I will use a "better" punishment for you :D muahahaha ! So if u wanna save ur life , u better nt snatch him no matter de cause . I'm msn-ing him now ! Love Him Lots Lots . Hearts you ! ♥
Ohya , I realise there's this song called I'm Only Me When I'm With You by Taylor Swift . Its quite nice , I gonna post de video here , nice de ok ! :D
One week to the EOY . Die le Die le , I'm starting to panic le . OMG , later if i failed my maths hw ? Then I cnt go A maths . Then later I cnt go JC or Poly . Then later I cnt uni hw hw hw D: OMG , IM SCARED . Mr Tay , why set de math paper til so hard , wahhhs ! Kor , i need you T.T
This week still okok . Cake for Lipeng was kinda nice , iloveit . Even though I didnt bake it , sadden . But Alicia de di very cute siol <3 K lahs , i go to audi le bye ya ! :D dun miss me :X
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
7:15 PM
I WANT MORE GANS ! :X
School is boring as usual , like duh . EOY coming le ! Mr Tay's pressuring us by telling us that the sec4 teacher wants our eoy maths paper ; Ms Murty's practice compre is getting weirder by the second ; Art paper is not given out yet giving us less time ; History's SBS is confusing me like mad ; Science are making me crazy with the salt and other weird things ; Chinese is scarier as ever with the report things ; DNT drawing is getting more complicated ; Literature's Napoleon is getting more kbkp .
English lesson is boring as ever . Ms Murty was toking abt the different kinds of flags metioned in the paper 9 practice paper in the reading rites . Everything seems so freaking blurr to me , cause I dun even wanna noe wat is the meaning behind the flags & etc . Got alot of wrong answers , I rather do compo D;
P.E was siao today . Played captian's ball since TBC neh come . Theres like 20 girls playing the sport lo . Was playing like siao kia le . Play lai Play qiu . In the end , neh rmb de score (: So fun lo , I rather play captian's ball instead of badminton o.o Was giddy & sweating like hell after de game ! xD
Maths was boring . Did a revision worksheet when Mr Tay say we were too noisy . Was doing while resting on the table . Shiok ! haha , the qns okok lah >< haii , i scared i fail my maths then cnt take 'A' maths next year T.T
Last three periods we spent toking abt wat guys like wat girls like & yada . So funny lo :D hehehehe , tok til siaosiao le . Then some of the paper is biased towards ACE , haha ! :X
Ok , end of post le . Practically is because I nothing to say le (: EOY must jyjy ! This year streaming soooo jy ! BYE PEOPLE WHO READING MY BLOG ! xD (or aliens)
Being with you is all I wish for .
Just to clear the mistakes I made .
Words said cannot be taken back .
I've made a huge mistake .
A mistake I will regret for life .
6:54 PM
Happy Sweet 16 Sandy (:
Now , you can watch nc16 movies while i cant D;
Sadden lor !
But come back soon hor , imy !
<3
Everything is so different now .
Things are starting to change .
Everything just pass by like wind .
But why do I keep thinking .
Why can't my thoughts fly away ?
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about you .
Its so scary .
The dark revolves .
Monday, September 14, 2009
9:57 PM
Boo People!
Hazel asked me to post for her ,
since she's busy watching her chinese dramas on chl 55 . ><
; SILLY (:
(People makes mistakes , that's why erasers are put behind pencils . )
Sunday, September 13, 2009
3:08 PM
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.
Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment
grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry”
He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”
HONK~!!
“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…
“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty
five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach,
that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…
“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…
For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life….
Thursday, September 10, 2009
3:35 PM
Hello ! Im going to post right now . Since I have nothing else to do . God , I miss sotong & silly D; Rawrs , they better reply my sms sooner or later . Or else , muhahaha . Kays lahs , i'm nt gonna be mean .
Amanda call me post abt her , but idk wat to post abt . Aiya , I just post her very chio can le ;D muhahaha . Go her blog to see her picture ! Its in my link . GoGo , hahhas ! (: Im sooo bored .
Silly smsing me now , yay ! Now , wheres my sotong . Rawrs ! Im going to kill tat sotong le lahs ! >< Guess wat am i doing now ? Im smsing , msning , fbing & plurking . God , Im sooo pro . Lazy play audition :O Kay lahs , I'm only trying to drag this post longer since i hoilday didnt go out . Was at home taking care of my mummy . I hope mummy gets better , nt becux i wanna go out , since nobody jio me out anyways (:
Kay lahs , i end this post le . Since i going tuition later x.x Sians , hoilday oso must go tuition , even though mine is fun de ;D bye !
Friday, September 4, 2009
7:46 PM
When I look up in the sky ,
I wonder what it is like to fly up high .
Being human is wondefully painful & beautiful .
So , whats the feeling of soaring up high ? ♥
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
3:53 PM
Once in a while ,
Right in the middle of an ordinary life ,
Life gives us a fairytale .
Anyone surprise Im blogging now ? Ya , I'm oso surprise . I think I have nothing to do thats why I'm blogging . And the fact that I don't have any idea how to do my toy car . Haii , i hate dnt sooo much .
P.E was tiring , of course . I was trying to make my standing board jump two marks . Gosh , my leg muscles was cramping now . Shouldnt have jump sooo much . But then it's kinda worth it , since I jumped 145 cm (: happy siol . But now , my legs r cramping like hell . Gosh , i can't even walk properly without limping D; Played badminton afterwards . So cool , played with Sze Hua <3 after p.e went back to class .
History was somehw suckish ? Mr Goh was on MC . Mr Lump took over . There was like nothing to do in the lesson . I was doing my chinese work o.o Sooo boring siol , duno wat they talk abt . Then suddenly told us to take out a piece of foolscap . He told us to write down watever is needed in a new country when it is given to u . Wasted a perfect piece of paper D; Recess time !
U know , our canteen's table suddenly got alot of bird shits ? It was so freaking disgusting . Jiahui , Szehua & me had to avoid lots of tables just for that . Becux someone took our table even though I put my pe shirt there >:/ In the end , sat near Andre & ZhaoEn's table . Even though there oso got shit ><"
English played bingo again . Sians , wats sooo nice abt playing bingo to learn english anyway . I wanna sleep le lahs . I rather Ms Murty let us c de Michael Jackson scary video . -yawns- Was doing my chi hw of course :P
Maths doing de set notation & language again . Gosh , I hate it . It completely sucks . The lucky thing is I noe some of it (: hahahas , im sooo happy ok ! Its quite easy if u get it . But then idk wats real number & etcetc . So stupid lor D; I wonder if Darren & Joe noes hw to do ;X
Chinese class was boring as usual ? Did revision on de upcoming chinese test tml . It was freaking boring lo >< Finish my drawing ; d & t homework . Now , i have to complete my d&t journal & do my toy car . Hope i can finish by friday (: hehe , file up de chinese file then jiu lesson end .
Last lesson was completely boring . I'm so lazy to elborate . After school went to buy bbt with Szehua ♥ . Pei her until her bus came jiu go home le . Arent i such a good friend ? :D
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
7:12 PM
Hazel; Zhabor hopes she can go out with JingXuan; Tabor this sunday (:
Cux , he's gonna fetch me .
Happy Happy me .
But I got a feeling my parents not gonna let me out D;
BooHoo , I want go out with him :D
{♥}